found 'that place'

ok, i'm no Charlotte Queen of Meat or Kim the Iron Chef (they should know who they are)
but today...i found myself running.
Ben the Trainer, who i'm working with at the gym to come up with a work out routine that will make me a wee bit fitter and then help me loose 50 pounds so i can get my nose pierced. (yes, really)

anyway
part of my routine thus far has been 45 minutes on the treadmill several times a week. i like the treadmill. it is a confining space that keeps people OUT of my personal space and keeps me IN control.

anyway
i've been foolin' around with the different settings on the treadmill like the Cardio setting, the Training setting etc. I've also been foolin' around with my play lists on my ipod...finding the right mood music is CRUCIAL not only to a work out...but...a good long drive ....a good cry....a good make-out session...etc.

anyway
so this afternoon i was walking along (on the treadmill) at an OK clip. not too fast and not too slow..i'm sure i look like some freakshow as i change the sway of my arms and hips as i try to find the beat of each song as it comes up on the ipod.


anyway
i've only caught myself ONCE singing outloud
i totally fantasize while i'm listening to the lyrics...
and don't you laugh
cuz you all do it to!!

anyway
a song came on
it just struck me
i mean struck me
totally started seeing myself singing this song with the Almost brothers
(totally a fantasy...not a request)
'Dim all the Lights' by Donna Summer

anyway
i was part of the disco era by default
my mom had those spandex dance outfits and went to The disco

anyway
so as i'm walking along
singing (in my head)
swaying my hands
trying to find the groove
and POOOOOOOF

i hit the speed button to increase the pace
i actually start running on this machine
which probably was really only a jog
i'm hitting the beats
i AM donna
ON stage
AT Murphs on High

anyway
WHAM
my frikin' ipod flies off the treadmill
detaching itself from the earplugs
and bangs its way down and out of the personal space
THANK GOD
there was no one on the machine beside me
cuz i'm sure i was singing when the thing flew off of me
i was quick enough to jump my feet onto the side bars
but the damn thing kept going WITH NO MUSIC NO LESS
and i didn't have a way around my PERSONAL space bars

anyway
in an instant I AM Jamie Lee Curtis in that movie True Lies
when she is trying so hard to BE that dancer
and falls right on her butt

anyway
there is a stop button
so i hit it

gathered up my ipod and attached it
turned the treadmill on again
shoved that ipod down inside my sports bra

anyway
i dimmed all those lights damn it...
i ran for the full 6 minute song!!!
toward the end i was encouraging donna to finish up
cuz i had major dry mouth
but i ran till the end.


anyway
is that what runners call finding 'that place'?