one year ago today....

it was one year ago that we found ourselves back here in EMO.....
i've been acutely aware of it the last few days.

i went back to a website that had these great videos saved and downloaded them to watch. the big girls and i sat here staring at the computer watching all of our family and friends just pick us up..

i saw some footage of douglas and i hugging and it took my breath away.....

there is a moment when we are looking at the big girls' bathroom and you sit down on the bathtub to rest and i can see you in the mirror...
we are in the bathroom and someone shuts the door so we can be alone i'm supposing.

i wish i could remember what we said to one another....

he looked so skinny (and me not so much:0
Lu is so tiny.....
my big girls are so skinny also. i had been so worried about them and their stress levels and the impact on their weights. they had both dropped over 10lbs...it scared me.

i have to laugh cuz i see some footage of Julie C with a beer in her hand....shortly there after she wasn't drinking that anymore :):) and here we are a year later with a new baby girl!!!


i can tell how tired he was.
i remember getting that shirt at Macy's
it was orange and i wanted you to have it for Halloween/fall
your hair was so short


how do we offer an appropriate Thank You
a worthy Thank You????
what do you say to people that save your life?

my God...it has been quite a year.

I miss you terribly Douglas......